Saturday 26 March 2016

Among other things, iConnect

Saw the first few episodes of Jessica Jones. Really liking it. So this is for you, Jessica:


I thought I thought
But it was you all along
I thought I’d sing
A little song
About the scar you left
On my eyes
Everything I see
I see through your ways

So am I still thinking
Is this still my head?
Is it still my will?
Is it still my say?

Was it always me all along
Am I still the one singing this song
Am I still strong...
Enough to see I’m not wrong
Am I strong enough to see
I am weak
That I’m really really weak
I mutter the names of fucking streets

Do I even want to forget
Do I even want to fight
Do I know that I was right
You and I
Are we the same?
At the end of a tiring day

Tonight I will sleep
Just sleep
No nightmares
No, no more
Just sleep, without you
On my bed
Alone
Without you.



Wednesday 16 March 2016

Among other things, iVoice


"Who are you? Where are you?!", demanded a frustrated voice.
"I wonder who am I? Where am I?", a calm voice replied.
"Why can't I see anything?!" I can see you, though. "What is happening here!!"  Who knows?
"Would you believe me if I said I am as clueless as you are?"
"I don't care about what you feel!" Neither do I.
"Why can't I open my eyes...? Why...?", the frustration still intact, the voice broke..
"Why can't I see..?", the voice said between sobs "I want to see.."
"Your eyes are open.", said the calm voice, with a cold edge now.
"Then am I blind... "
"Yes, you always were."
Sobs. More sobs. Helpless sobs. Muffled sobs. Tired sobs.
Hours. Days. Weeks. Years. Decades.
"Who are you...Where are you..?", the voice searched for the other.
"You have been silent...please talk to me...release me."
A long silence.
Minutes. Hours.
"Who are you?! Where are you?!", followed by a hysterical scream. Screams that went on for hours, clouding the voice, killing the voice.
"Now you are mute too."
"The years of bawling, finally ends." 
Silence.
"Who am I?"
"Where am I?"
Silence, finally.
"You asked the wrong questions, all along."
"The question is, who are you? Where are YOU!", a scream, followed by more silence. Good.

"For I am nothing. I am nowhere."



"LET us go then, you and I,
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherized upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats        
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an overwhelming question….       
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”

Let us go and make our visit."
- The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, T. S. Eliot.